So childish

How you implement such deceitful thoughts

To purify your image, your facade

So childish

To presume people's thinking, people's words

Half truth, half lie

Reverting the story from its prime

So childish

For making comebacks and revenges

Only to do what's just for you

Hurting those like they do to you

So childish

Talking bout spaceships, flying cars, and super heroes

Can't find the horizon that separates the reality and the animated

Lost in wishful thoughts   

So childish

Speaking without thinking

Cause words create themselves

Like sticks and stones can't break no bones

So childish, you say?

 

 

Continue my poem.  Just follow a similar format beginning with "So childish". 

 

 

Show us your bedroom.
Submitted by Wel.

Two weeks ago, my room underwent an extreme makeover.  No joke.  Right when I got home that Friday, I locked myself in the room for three hours straight.  I was that determined to clean my room especially after the shock my uncle got when he "accidentally" stepped into my room.  Ok, maybe that's an exaggeration because really my room wasn't that messy.  I mean sure I had clothes here and there and a bunch of papers on the floor, but it was "livable".

BEFORE

YAWN...plain and boring

It wasn't this bad haha.

 

AFTER

I rotated my bed 90 degrees and moved in the sofa.

my "entertainment system"

Who needs those fancy mancy furnitures.  I do just fine with my cheap Target storages haha.  I guess I am some what of a hoarder.  I just keep things for the memory of it, and they just pile up.  Well this is the best I could do for my room. And I think it looks pretty darn cool haha. 

I'm  beginning to place a high value on those who follow through what they promise or say they would do.  This is such a hypocritical statement coming from me because sometimes I don't or can't even do that.  Regardless, this is a character that I often let slide and I just shrug it off later.  Like if your friend promises he/she will be there at a certain hour, but they end up bailing out because something came up.  What do you do?  "No, it's ok, I understand."  You just don't give much thought to it.  No big deal.  The act alone has many levels and of various degrees. 

• Yourself.  I told myself I will not procrastinate.  I told myself I will not judge.  I told myself I will not have regrets.  I told myself I will be optimistic.  I can honestly say that I do stick to most of these commitments(?).  (Of course procrastination is a debatable topic)  I chicken out a lot mainly cause of some confidence/self esteem issues, but they're all practical reasons.  Sometimes I wish I am stronger inside so I don't back out on my words.   
• Others.  There are those who say certain things that I doubt.  I don't like to think that way because I know they are capable of sticking to their words, but I also don't like putting my hopes and expectations up.  But there are those who I can fully trust to pull it through in the end.  Disappointment is something I've been trying to avoid.  Life would be great if I can be immuned to disappointments. 

I guess to a certain extent a broken promise is harmless.  You can let it go.  I can let it go.  But there are words that stick to you.  You keep them in the back of your mind hoping you or that person will not forget.  Then there is the question:  What's more important?  Keeping your words to others or to yourself?  I think this act can speak so much more. 

I shall add onto this thought later.

I am a very indecisive person who can't seem to stick with one thing for long.  Yall should know that by now haha.  Anywho, I slept for 10 hours last night.  That's ridiculous considering today's a Friday haha.  Boyy, can't wait to make up all my tests on Monday.  So what's new in life?  I haven't blogged in ages.  Funny how everyone started blogging when I was on hiatus. 

Last Saturday, Hong-An threw a surprised birthday party for anh Bao.  It wasn't much of  a surprise since he already knew about it.  We had hot pot on the floor; a total of 30 something people on the floor staring at one small pot haha.  Chau and I had to be on our feet at all time and grab as many squids, veggies, and quail eggs as we could.  The whole family room was turned into a mini club that night.  We had clubbin' music on full blast and the flashing lights in the background.  I was exhausted, so I just chilled on the sofa haha.  Everyone else gambled all night.

We had our course selection for 2009 on Tuesday.  After Key Club, we stayed behind and Richard drove me, Matt, Lala, and Stephanie to Carl Jr. for lunch.  Then we went back to the library and ate our one dollar burgers in the parking lot haha.  It was pretty fun. The course selection started at 4:30PM, and it took forever.  I was planning to stay for 30 minutes, but it took us two long hours haha.  I only picked four APs: English, calculus BC, art, and economics.  All my electives are art oriented.  I might change anatomy to AP physics after seeing the cat that Michelle dissected.  That cat had no eye balls, and its eye sockets were wide opened.  It scared the heck out of me haha.  So much for wanting to face my fear. 

I've been hanging out with Andrew, Andersen, Sim, and Nafiri a lot lately.  I love a group that actually does something every week haha.  During lunch, we'd chill in Spickelmier's (I know what nerds!) haha.  We have good entertainment though--Andrew and Andersen's guitar duet. Michelle and Sharisse still drive me around, and we just hang out at Michelle's like first term.  The only good thing about this term is that I actually get to see everyone.  What will I do when they're off to college next year?  haha

I complain a lot about this term.  I ought to be more optimisitc haha.  I'll try to like Spanish more since it is my last year besides I have Lena, Katelyn, and Chris Seo to enjoy it with.  I have Tiffany and Andrew in biology haha.  Computer science is pretty much the same.  The more Mr. Dwyer lectures the more I want to fall asleep.  I do enjoy writing Pokemon programs haha.  History is still boring.  I take every opportunity to fall asleep.  It's pretty fun talking to Lala, Ryan Cheung, and Nick in that class though.  CHERRY PIE! We mess with Ryan too much.  He probably hates me now haha.  

On Wednesday, my two uncles from Vietnam arrived.  The four Ha brothers reunited under one roof.  The house is not quiet anymore, and I kinda like it haha.   

Today was...odd.  There was a mix of the goods and the bads.  I don't like when I've finally decided on something and determined to do it, I end up missing my chance to do so.  I had three chances today.  Damn, I'm such a chicken haha.  I was having second thought after hearing people's input.  Things happened for a reason.  I don't regret it anymore.

During lunch, I hung out in biology, so Andrew could teach me how to play Fresh Prince of Bel Air.  It sounded nothing like it though haha.  During computer science, the fire alarm went off.  Apparently, some kid called in and said there was a bomb.  We all waited at the basketball court.  I tried to play ping pong, but failed miserably haha.  I really want to join Shane's ping pong club now.  After 4/5 period, no one went to class, so we just hung out haha.  James and I was flipping a quarter to decide on something, and it flew somewhere haha.  Mann it was so embarrassing.  In history, James and I decided to go with Alex's song, In My Car by The Pack.  I just stood there and did the little hand movement while Alex sang haha.  

Going down the street
I see a jobless girl
She wants job
I give jobs
I'll take her to my world
cause FDR a star

For the rest of the period, Ryan taught me how to play the beginning of Seven Nation Army on the guitar.  It was pretty cool.  After school, I went with Andersen, Nafiri, Sim, and Andrew to Harriet Eddy for the Teen Program.  They had to leave, so I just stayed behind with Julianne.  We spent most of the time on the basketball playing football.  I am so joining powder puff next year.  I can't throw, but I can catch haha.  At 6PM, Andersen came back to pick me up.  I didn't plan on going with them to the movies because I was so damn sleepy, but I went anyways.  First, we went to Top Yogurt.  It was my first time there, so I took forever to decide on what to get.  It was pretty good.  We just sat around and waited for Sharisse, Melanie, and Michelle.  Then we stopped by Nathan's Cuisine for dinner.  Andrew had to go home, so it was just the girls eating.  Around 7:30PM, we left to Century to watch Cloverfield.  The movie was alright, not as bad as I thought.  The flashing lights were annoying though, but everything else kept me awake.  Around 9PM, Andersen dropped me home. 

This week went by pretty fast (maybe because Monday was a holiday).  First off, lets discuss my failure to talk the talk, but can't walk the walk.  On Tuesday, I was determined to drop computer science for business law or guitar lab because on Monday night I just went "fcuk it " to the intersession work.  On my way to the office, Sharisse told me the due date for the intersession work is postponed to next Tuesday.  Hallelujah!  I was relieved because I didn't want to go through the whole dropping-out process.  Plus, I wanted to keep the A- I worked my butt off for in first term.  On the other hand, I really wanted to take a different class.  I signed up for computer science to work with Html not Java.  Well, it's too late for everything.  

The second failure of mine is of course calculus.  I told myself not to repeat the past--I must start off strong this semester! Psych!  I didn't even start on my portfolio until Wednesday.  I decided to try something different.  I would sleep first and wake up super early to study instead of studying late and falling asleep after.  So I went to sleep at 11PM and set my alarm clock to 4:30PM!  Luckily, I woke myself up at exactly 6:30AM.  I was late, and I didn't even get to study for the chapter 4 test.  Omann, I suck at life.  I am almost positive I got an F on the first part.  I was pretty much bumped out for the rest of th day.  I don't worry too much about my overall grade because I have plenty of time to raise it, but I don't like to see or hear Mr. Pi's disappointment.  The man actually acknowledged me after I finally passed one test with a pat on the back!  Now I am back to where I was in the beginning of the year--hanging onto a C.  Today, however, I think I did pretty well on the second part of the test.  I went all out last night.  When I finished my homework packet at 1AM, I had a cup of tea, went into my room with my notes and homework, and turned on the light.  For the entire night (or rather morning) I slept for five minutes, looked over one page of note, checked the time, went back to sleep for another five minutes, and repeated the same process.  At 5:30AM, I got up and drank a whole bottle of Starbucks Coffee.  For some miraculous reason, I did not feel tired this morning.  I did feel a little dizzy  throughout the day.

Anyways, after the calculus test, the rest of the day was pretty chilled.  Sra. Ricks is still stuck in LA, so we had a sub again.  We just watched Notre Dame in Spanish.  Lena and I were passing notes and taking turns writing a poem/lyrics haha.  It doesn't make much sense, but it sounds pretty good on the surface.  Is there a deeper meaning? Who knows haha.  In biology, we just worked on our packet.  I didn't get anything done because Rafael kept talking to me haha.  He's such a gentleman though, a nice fella.  I have to admit, I am so jealous of his life.  The guy went to Japan two times as an exchanged student, so he's pretty much fluent.  And this summer, he's going to China to watch the Olympics.  Mann what have I been doing for the past seventeen years?!  I want those experiences!  When is it my turn?

Mr. Dwyer's been gone all week, so we just did whatever in computer science.  I spent my time wisely by doing my homework for other classes and postponing my program.  That class is tiny now after so many people dropped out--only fifteen students.  Nonetheless, the remaining people still make the class fun.  "WHY AM I IN THIS CLASS?!"  Amir cracks me up so much haha.  History is lame as ever.  Mrs. Murphy is pretty cool though.  Like Mrs. DeShaw, she sympathizes our struggles with AP classes by minimizing our homework.  Cheers to that!

 

I must have pressed the snooze button 320948238 times today.  Just five more minutes damnit!  I knew I was going to be late; I planned it so.  Certain days I just want to sleep in and not go to 0 period.  Never again will I take a class before 7AM!  Anyways, I finally got my semester one grade for calculus: 82% B- baby!   Just what I was hoping for!  Then, Matt did me a huge favor after physics, which was pretty cool of him haha.  Second period was pretty depressing.  I completely bombed the first part of the final.  And I really mean bombed--0% on the multiple choice.  All my answers were like the second to the best choice.  I am so not looking forward to the argumentative essay tomorrow.  I finally started on my dollar drawing in physics.  It's actually not that bad.  I just have to finish the landscape project, and I am carefree (in art)!  

Again, cannot wait until Saturday!

Boo, I feel old.
Andre's right.  Seventeen is such a useless age.
You can drive at sixteen.  You can go clubbing at eighteen.  What's there for seventeen?
You can finally watch R rated movies.  Correction: you can finally buy your own ticket.  Whoopie!
Well, I had a good day.  In the morning, I got a little present from Tracy--a Ratatouille notepad!  Aw so cute.  And I got many birthday wishes throughout the day.  I spent lunch with James (squared), which was pretty fun.  I finally tried the vegetarian burger that Emmanuel raved about last term.  Good thing it came with fries because it did not taste that great.  Andrew popped in my art class out of nowhere this morning haha.  He snuck up on us again as we walked to 6th period.  So far, anh Bao gave me an iPod shuffle that he won at work from a photography contest.  Chi Tram Anh bought me a pair of 7 jean.  That's right, 7 For All Mankind!  The most expensive pair of jean I ever own haha.

Boyy, I cannot wait until Saturday! 

It's raining for the entire week. Today I made Emily and Ashley walked me to first period because I didn't have an umbrella haha. This is a good way to get to know people or spark up some new conversations with your old pals. In physics, we had two guest speakers from the Navy came in to talk about their nuclear program. I was intrigued. I never thought about joining the army, air force, or navy. But 6 to 8 years of college paid off and a very generous income after you graduate sound pretty darn good to me! Of course I'm talking about nuclear engineering. I remember when my uncle came over in the summer, he told me about this major. I think I will consider it. Nuclear Engineering. It's probably the only science based major I like.

 

Such a big event deserves a longer post, yet I'm not in the mood to point out every details. Let's just say the party wasn't exactly how I had imagined it would be.

Mom dropped me off at Connie's around 2:30PM. I set up the Wii in the living room and went about taking pictures of everyone. I must say my dad's camera is a big disappointment. Next time, I'll use mine. Twenty-five people came. I felt bad for the guys because the PS3 didn't work for some unknown reason. The foods were really good. I brought 60 eggrolls. Around 6PM, we watched Superbad. The DVD froze halfway in, so we just played DDR for the remainder of the time. James Chhun brought smores! I never had them before, so I was pretty excited to make them. We didn't do it the traditional way because we didn't have the right materials. Erika just popped them in the microwave haha. Then at 9PM, I went home.